What is a mid-life crisis?
Is it when everything you thought you wanted in life comes into question and you start to think about other possibilities? And because you have always been a certain way, that people think you’ve gone crazy because you want to tip your life upside down and shake it up?
If that’s it, I think I’m having a mid-life crisis.
I’ve always loved my work. I am one of those fortunate people that love my job, and I have been in the same job, well, argh…20 years.
Now little miss “Jade” has come along and I either have to put her in child care or do something about my work.
I love my work and what will I do if/when she’s reunified with TM?
But I love bubs and I don’t want other people raising “my baby” while I’m at work.
If this is how hard it is for me to contemplate being separated from bubs all day, how hard is it on TM? Does the fact that another woman is raising her baby drive her as nuts as it’s driving me thinking about having to go back to work?
I know I don’t want to stop work altogether but I don’t know that I want to do 5 days a week.
I wish I knew how the case was progressing, but honestly I think it’s not. “Jade” has been with us 16 weeks and they haven’t even progressed to unsupervised visits in the office yet.
I am supposed to go back to work in 3 weeks.
I have to decide now.
I have to sort out child care and work.
What am I going to do?